Whoever told me that being a Christian was a LIFE changing event was telling the truth! As I look over this last year and even in recent events in my life I have realized that standing in Faith is a VERY lonely road!! You see standing in faith means that you DO stand alone in the world, because you realize that NOT everyone in your life Believes in a God that still performs miracles, signs and wonders!! In the most recent past months I have believed and stood and when I knew that God had said yes it didn't turn out the way I thought because my circumstances said NO!! So, I asked the Lord what happened and He said there was a petition. A petition by satan stating that I am sure she will curse you to your face if you don't do this ONE thing for her like you said. I didn't understand because everything that I thought was going to happened had now been delayed!! Talk about my patience being TESTED!! Enough already!! So, what did I do? What any human being would do. Grieve! And in my moment of grief and frustration He told me about the petition... So, as a child of the MOST HIGH GOD, I counter petitioned!! I told the Lord to search my heart and if there were impurities then judge me! He already knows what I am going to do before I do it and already knows everything about me!! So, I wait, and wait and wait some more!! In my wait I feel like I am called to fast with my church and the last few days I have been preparing for this fast! I am actually excited to do it!!
For those who don't know my story, my husband was convicted of a crime he did not commit in 2008 and since all of this has happened I have had a baby along with raising my 7 year old all by myself. No family help. Friends? What Friends? They left when my husband got convicted. Single parenting is hard. I didn't ask to be a single parent when I got married. This isn't the LIFE I would've chosen for me!! But, let me tell you about what God HAS done in this process. He has taken care of us every month for the last year and a half and I have had the opportunity to homeschool my 7yr old as a single parent and we have always had food to eat and clothes along with shoes on our feet. He has performed a miracle every month for us by paying our bills and all I have done was lift my bills up to him and you know HIS WORD IS TRUE!!! He says He will provide all my needs according to His riches and glory!! And when man has said NO... MY GOD SAID YES!!! :) It's so amazing to me how much He loves me! And let me tell you this ... Since He did it for me, HE WILL DEFINITELY DO IT FOR YOU!!! Trust in Him even when everyone and everything around you screams NO. Remember He said Yes to you before you said Yes to Him!! Stand and Believe that His word and only His word is the Truth!! I love you!!
