"Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt. Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever." Isaiah 61:7
When I went to Kairos last year, one of the things that My Father in Heaven talked to me about was my earthly father (or lack thereof) and the events that took place in my childhood. He took me back to the event where I was standing in front of my earthly father and He said, "Tell him what you wanted to always tell him." So, I did. I told my father exactly what I had been wanting answers to my whole entire life. Why did you leave me? You could’ve stayed. I loved you. You should’ve stayed because I LOVED YOU. And as the words echoed in my heart as I screamed them , the Lord gently took me by the hand and He started leading me to this place. I started to skip and dance as we walked and danced together. I was happy, innocently happy. The Lord took me back to a place of rest and sat me down and poured this gold liquid into my heart called liquid love. It overflowed and touched everything and as I looked around, everything was covered in gold. He healed my broken heart that started from when I was a child that directed every thought, every pattern of habit in my heart and in my life. For me, He spoke life into these broken bones. He poured out His love for me even more fervently as everything came to the surface. Knowing that I can talk about events that happened to me without having the emotions attached to them, reminds me of how much love He has, even for little old me. The one prayer that I had during that time was that I wanted a real father/daughter relationship. The funny thing is, He already knew this, and in order for me to see the blessing of the relationships around me, He had to heal me from this one event that dictated my life and ruled my relationships. He did it, so gently and lovingly with much patience and amazing grace.
On Memorial Day, I was given an opportunity to go back to Colorado to see my family. When I arrived, I knew what my mission was in my heart. To Love. During those 4 days I was there, a lot of healing took place. A lot of apologizing to my family so that there can be healing in them, as well. I whole-heartedly believe that no one sin is bigger than the other. I have met people in prison that are walking in more freedom than people that are not in prison. My prayer to my Father was that my family would see Him and not me. They did, whether they know it or not. They saw Him and were touched as He touched their hearts and poured out His love for them. Since then, I have a new earthly father, who makes my mother very happy, and he lets me call him Dad. He will not only step into the place of being my dad, but I will step into the place of being his daughter. A real father/daughter relationship. Wow. Absolutely amazing. Plus, he does really cool, adventurous stuff like jumping off cliffs for fun. Relax; he is a professional Para Glider. God has a way of giving us the desires of our hearts in overwhelming and overflowing ways. Not only have I gained a Dad, my children have gained a Grandfather, which is also my desire for my children. There are many blessings to having grandchildren. They are the heritage and legacy of a family. And God is about family. The most important thing is my mother is happy and for this reason alone, my new Dad is apart of our family and our hearts are forever changed because he was the missing link all of these years.
I have always said, “I am a daddy’s girl.” Now I can be, to the fullest of my desires. So, when you hear me say, God restores brokenness, families and relationships He does that and more. I am looking forward to this new season in my life that will reap seeds of love and fulfillment in every area of my life and the lives of those I love.
All Glory, Honor and Praise must be given to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. He is a good God and He wants good things for us.
"Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt. Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever." Isaiah 61:7
