Victory is the word of the Day!!

On October 19, 2010, we received news that the Criminal Court of Appeals (It’s like the Supreme Court only for criminal cases) denied our appeal. The thing is, I know in the natural what it looks like, but in the SUPERNATURAL it looks like, smells like and tastes like VICTORY!! I was sweetly reminded this last week that God can intervene on your behalf at anytime He wants, but His ways are not our ways.  Quite frankly, Jesus performed many miracles, signs and wonders in His ministry here on Earth, but nothing compared to what happened AFTER He died - the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.

Jesus was beaten, ridiculed and He suffered extreme conditions for our sin. He could have at ANYTIME stopped it, but there was a purpose in His suffering that was bigger than His circumstances. It was bigger than anything ANYONE could EVER imagined. His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts. The thing is through the suffering, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ we have the VICTORY in EVERY circumstance. God waited 3 days to perform a MIRACLE of raising Jesus from the dead and bringing Him back to earth for all to see. The three days that He was gone, He went to Hell to set the captives free. Amazing. So, just because our case has gone as far as it could in the court system only means that God is fixing to bring Justice in HIS way to our case. When God does it His way it brings HIM Glory, Honor and Praise! So, this is not grave news, this is AWESOME VICTORIOUS NEWS!! So, now the fight is on and we get to bring EVERYTHING up in his case that was wrong instead of just what the Appellate Courts rules only allow us to bring up. You see, you can appeal a case for the verdict being inaccurate, but the Appellate Court laws are set up to represent ‘procedural errors’ only. What is that? In a nutshell, the Appeal process is a WASTE of taxpayer’s time and money because of the way it is set up. It is just a way to suck more money out of us. You see, if we had won the appeal we would’ve received a ‘compensation package’ of $80,000 per year that my husband has stayed in prison. But, now that we have found out that what they have done to my husband is ILLEGAL!! Yep, we are fixing to own the State of Texas!! You see God’s plans are different than ours. We tend to think VERY small and try to figure it out, but it is so much bigger than our brain can hold. So, He gives us things ‘in part’ so that we seek Him fully. When I look back over the last two years and see how far I have come, I am amazed at how much freedom I have to love Him and worship Him EXTRAVAGANTLY!!! Is my reaction a surprise? I think it is to me and might be to MOST people around me. You see, in order to become the man or woman of God that HE wants us to be… well, we have to walk through some STUFF!! We only know part of the story, to give us a hope and a future and an EXPECTED END!! I have prophetic words from the Lord and I am standing on those words, even TODAY. I don’t know how He is going to do it, but I do know that HE IS GOING TO DO IT!!! Whom the Son has set free is free indeed. I thank you for walking this path with me and lifting me up in prayer. Start REJOICING today, because we have already WON!!

So, Father, I thank you for everyone that is reading this and I thank you that You are touching their hearts and returning to them, a 1000 fold blessing and that You are releasing to them today. I ask that everyone who has sown seeds of tears in their prayers and invested in my family that you give them their reward for being obedient to You today, and that nothing in Hell can stop what You have ordained. I thank You Father, that You have given me people to rejoice with in so many different ways. May the Lord bless you and keep you and may He shine His face upon you and may you always find favor in His sight through the Blood of Jesus Christ. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen and Amen!!

REJOICE!! REJOICE!! REJOICE!! REJOICE!! REJOICE!! REJOICE!!

Love or Perish

I have a guest writer again this week, Connie Hill. Connie is an amazing woman who shares her testimony of overcoming adversity within herself with the love of God. She and her best friend, Leah Rocha have an amazing ministry called The Butterfly Effect where they are touching lives and God is changing hearts in many diverse areas. They minister to ALL women and love on them and allow the Holy Spirit to do His job. I personally am in awe of the woman Connie has become in the last 6 months and I know that God has yet another amazing adventure in store for her and her family. Blessings in over abundance to her and her wonderful family, who have overcome the enemies plan through the Grace of GOD!! Enjoy reading and leave her a comment.

As I sit here today, these words ring so true to my heart. Let me start off by telling you a little about myself. I have been married for 15 years and I am a stay at home mom. My Husband and I have three children. Our daughter Cayla is twelve, our daughter Avery is eleven, and our son Calvary is eight. I home school all three of my children and my best friends youngest daughter. I have many hobbies on the side, which include baking novelty cakes with my best friend, cooking for my family and friends, and working with flowers such as wedding bouquets and floral arrangements. God has blessed me with a creative mind and talented hands. I have not always felt talented or gifted in any area, and as a matter of fact I felt rather useless, forgotten and unworthy of any new strong relationships. I had been used and abused and felt damaged beyond repair. How many men, women or even children in our lives can relate to just that statement right there? Unfortunately, some of us may never know or find out until it is too late that there are people in our lives that feel just that way.


Last July 2, 2009, I was dealt with what felt like a final blow to my heart and spirit. I thought to God “this is it. It’s over and I'm tired of fighting.” I had been through one affair and now a second. I thought to myself, "what have I done to deserve this?" I was relieved to hear the truth because honestly I already knew the truth in my heart and I had given up on the work it takes in a marriage a long time ago. So, when my husband of 14 years at the time said he was leaving I was relieved to know ..... To know that I didn't have to live in the constant fear of being hurt anymore. I got up went to my church and said okay, teach me how to be a single mom.

I was so ready, but I didn't know what was in store for me at that very moment. One of my sweet friends looked me in the eyes and said "Connie, not that I disagree or do not believe that you have the right to walk away, heck I even think you should! But Connie did you ask God?

I was livid on the inside. What??? NO!!! Why would I ask God??!! He had His chance to warn me and He had his chance to save me, to save my marriage. After all the angry thoughts flew through my mind in a matter of seconds, I knew that she was right and I even knew the answer.

Okay, God here we go again.

I still had not learned to trust Him totally. Actually, I still had not learned that not trusting Him totally was to not trust Him at all. Who had my heart?? God or my husband?? Love or anger?? Fear or hate?? I'm going to have to say that a little of all of the above which made a mess of me and my life. The next year of my life would be like a ship in the middle of a hurricane.

I had good days and bad days. Days where I knew God's promises and his love and days I didn't care and all I could feel was the hurt and the pain and the fear that I was making the biggest mistake of my life. Could trusting God really be the biggest mistake of my life? Well, now that's just laughable. I finally got to the point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, and thought the only answer to freedom was to change my relationship and circumstances. I ended up sitting in a restaurant with my best friend balling my eyes out. The only way I could explain it to her was that I'm just tired, and I want it to stop.

You see I felt like if I left him I would be hurting my kids. If I stayed I would be judged by my friends as being weak. If I stayed I would be miserable because I could not figure out how to get past it. I could not find the right to stay or leave on my own.

On the bad days I couldn't even leave my room. I couldn't be around my children because they had no idea what I had been through with their father. We loved each other and you would have never known from the outside that anything was wrong.

I have a group along with my best friend called The Butterfly Effect. I would tell the girls all the time you got to let go. Mistakes don't define you. Walk in love, live out loud, dream out loud. While at the same time I felt like I was dying on the inside. I knew all these truths but did I really believe them for my self? I thought to myself, "I guess I'm just not the kind of girl you fight for. Not the kind of girl you're faithful to. Not the kind of girl that deserves respect." Because no matter how hard I worked or how hard I thought I loved...I couldn't do enough to earn it. I had two different realities going on which made me feel like I was going crazy. I wanted to die. If leaving my husband was going to make me the bad guy and staying was going to make me miserable, then death seemed like the next best thing. Man, self-pity was my best friend at this point. I was giving up! So what happened? What turned things around? What was it that I finally came to realize?

God loves me.

In the midst of me being angry with him, and with my husband, and my friends, God loves me. He was still right where we left off waiting with his hand out saying come on baby girl we got this!! Find me in the middle, find me all around you. I started to truly know God's unconditional love for me and for my husband. I saw the issue for once and not the person. Sure I may have gotten a glimpse of it from time to time, otherwise I wouldn't be writing this now, that’s called God's grace. God had begun sometime back to talk to me about his covenant with me. And I began to see just what it meant and how it mirrored my marriage covenant. God will never leave me for any reason whatsoever. He doesn't go back to square one with me, so I don't have to go back to square one either. I got a righteous anger that welled up deep inside me. Honey, the fight was on like Donkey Kong!!!! I told God, alright I will do it. I will be that girl, your daughter, that you have called me to be!! Oh adultery, where is your sting?? This sin has no longer got power over me! I felt 20 feet tall and in an instant the fear was gone. It was inside me the whole time. He was with me the whole time. My husband wasn’t holding me back; fear wasn't holding me back; anger wasn't holding me back. It was only me that was holding ME back! I truly believe there is no excuse for staying in the pit. Romans 20: For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

God is truly undeniable! I also went through a 3-day class called S.O.S. at Zac's Ridge that is similar to pathways or discovery for those of you who know what this is. It changed my life and helped me be more grounded in the decision that I had already made not to give up. I had 30 classmates and God and very loving leaders look me in the face and tell me Connie, GET OVER IT!! LOL some may say OUCH!! I did think oh man, they are so right. I'm the one chaining my own feet to the ground! So I did. I got over it. I finally took my own advice for once and I let go...it was the hardest thing I have ever done. Sometimes holding on to that fear, etc...becomes like a security blanket. I thought if I let go and move on what’s going to keep me from getting hurt again? Why would I get all better just to have the rug pulled out from under my feet. I was fighting against every thing I knew. God and His love for me, for my husband and my family. (God is love at work and love is God at work - When we are working with love, we are working with God) this is from one of my most cherished books, by Stella Terrill Mann, printed back in the 1940s. I had a choice. To make Love or Perish.

For the first time in 9 yrs I don't have good days and bad days. I have the days God has given and I have a choice to make the most of it. Hasn't it always been about a choice? We are all given a choice. What will your choice be today? Stand up dust your self off and start walking!!! I say love like God or perish. We cannot live a whole life without God's love. So many people need to see and experience God's true love. To see the face of God in his people the way he intended it. Not by how we feel or by circumstances or relationships, but by the only one truth. That truth is that God's love is unconditional and there is only one definition for unconditional...UNCONDITIONAL.

What I am most thankful for is that God is always there.

This is a song a wanted to share with you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=geHF1zbA25U copy and paste into your browser.

I want to encourage you to LOVE hard, PRAY hard, LIVE hard, and PLAY hard!



-Connie Hill

Challenging Your Own Beliefs – Your Responsibility

This week, F.C Boyd is my guest blogger at Healing Hearts. She brings her own style and flair and makes no excuses for it. I love her boldness and transparent honesty, not to mention her humor. She brings a philisophical view that helps us to think differently.

A man is what he thinks about all day

---Ralph Waldo Emerson

Each day, we go about our day in the same general way. We give little thought to what goes into our brains. Our thoughts are what program our subconscious mind. Our subconscious mind is the center of all our emotions. When our subconscious accepts an idea, it immediately begins to execute it. And then our subconscious uses our ideas, knowledge, energy and wisdom to find a solution. Sometimes, that can occur in an instant, sometimes, it may take days, weeks, or even months to find a solution. Your mind will continue to work on finding a solution.



What we think programs our mind. Our subconscious mind will always accept what we program it to think. Bottom line is that we are what we think about and we have the power to choose what we think.



Ask yourself these questions: What is my dominate thought? What specific thoughts should I deliberately place in my mind? What thoughts are sabotaging my success? How can I encourage actions to happen from my thoughts? How can my rational, conscious thought come together with my emotions to complement and strengthen one another?



Closely related to directing our thoughts, is our belief system. Just as airplanes have guidance systems to direct them; we have systems guiding and shaping what we think, believe and do.



What many of us don’t realize is that we are tuned into multiple control systems at the same time. For instance, many of your beliefs have come from your parents, spouse, and close friends, and the rules of the community, society, and even religion. Many of these influences may conflict with one another, so we have to prioritize who or what dictates our belief system. Without synchronizing these influences, we wander through life, always missing the target.

Here are examples of some general conflicts of interest:

The pursuit of wealth 

Money is the root of all evil

Job Security

Entrepreneurial Freedom

Spontaneous

Planned

You only live once

Plan for the future

Spiritual

Grounded

Can you identify conflicts of interest in your life? After you identify which beliefs contribute to your life, your next step is to determine which beliefs are personal truths for you and which ones may be left over, unresolved beliefs of others.



In order to truly change, grow and prosper, we need to be consciously aware of the rules we’ve made for ourselves, where they have come from, and what they’re based on. Do they all serve your purpose? Are they sabotaging you and what you want for your life? It is time to throw out what isn’t working for you and take ownership of YOUR beliefs.

Guest blogger: F.C. Boyd - Writer/Photographer


Check out her blog at:


Life On The Funny Side and her website at The Unleashed Writer
Brief Bio - F.C Boyd is a very gifted and talented, freelance writer and communicator. She thinks outside the box and is not afraid to show her true colors to the world. She brings a humorous flair and often a dramatic twist to her writing. You always leave refreshed, resolved and changed in a way that even YOU did not expect.

Turkeys or Eagles?

Saturday, I did my first training conference for a Christian home based business. They recorded it live and they did not edit it. Which is really good. And I rocked the house, if I do say so myself. I was able to share my testimony and my whole heart with them. I was honored to be among those that would be considered kings in the Old Testament of the Bible, and in the midst of them, there was me. Just starting out and in a position to where I would have to work harder than most to get where I would like to be. The amazing thing is, I have a reason to get up in the morning. I have hope, and a passion to get what I need to get. Not at the cost of losing myself, but at the cost of not finding myself. The thing with this business is everything is laid out in front of you and it is not shoving anything down your throat. Obviously it is network marketing, but the product sells itself because it does what it says it is going to do. It is just weeding out, who I want to work with and who I do not want to work with. I want people with drive and passion that will work a little harder to get what they want. And we all want FREEDOM in every area of our lives. Don’t we? I do most definitely. God did not create us to be sick and tired of being sick and tired. He created us to succeed and prosper just as our souls prosper. And that is just what I am going to do. And in the process, the VISION is coming alive in me. I am seeing the hope, the future and an expected end to the dry season. I am surrounded by people that have something that I need and I have something they need. The saying is true: If you want to soar with eagles then you have to stop hanging around the turkeys. To be around people that you can learn from, in every area of life. There is wisdom among those who have gone before you. That is what I want and it is what I need. The fact that I can do my work from home is amazing and it is going to give me the financial control over my income. I do not have to live in captivity anymore by working for someone else and making them millions of dollars off of my talents, my gifts, my creative ideas and the wisdom given to me. God created me to be much more than I am right now. And I have decided that I am going to be everything that God created me to be and know that He is walking this life with me through every step that I take. He is opening doors right now for me to walk through with confidence instead of wondering if this is what He has for me.

I think because this opportunity did not present itself in the way I thought it would, and it didn’t look the way I thought it would in my finite brain, I just might have missed an opportunity because I could not get outside my brain. We have to be mindful of who we are listening to? Are these people that are surrounding us in their comfort zone too much? Do they get outside themselves and give to those who are in need? Are they successful? Is anything that they speak about us or to us positive or negative? Are their words full of Life or full of death? When someone says that you shouldn’t do this or that, are they doing it or not doing it? Are they going to pay your bills if you don’t get a job? Seriously? It is easy for someone to say get a job, but when there are no doors opened to you then what? Are they going to say, well we will pray for you or are they going to be an extension of God’s hands and feet? If you have answered no to any of these questions, then you are probably hanging around a bunch of turkeys.

I once heard, that if you look at your inner circle of friends that your future can be summed up by the expectation of those people. If their expectation is to never get outside their box then, most likely they will not encourage you to get out of yours. This is not a picture I wanted to see, but if you ask God to remove the blinders from your own eyes then He will show you. Honestly, you may not like what you see. Different perspective may be indeed what you need. Equally yoked has a whole new meaning for me these last weeks and I am severely, dry in my yoking. This sent me on a journey seeking more of Him. More of His perspective, His will, His abundant life that He promised and I believe I am just starting to walk in that abundance. I was reminded today that I have to be careful of who I share my life and circumstances with. Even in my victories and triumphs, I am walking it out alone. Encouraged by complete strangers, yet I feel more at home with them as if we have known each other forever. I needed to be reminded today: “Do not surround yourself with negative, cynical, critical, nay saying, small minded, or jealous people. They will drain the life from you even when they think they are ‘correcting you’.” - Joel Osteen


The thing is, if we never take a risk and step out of the boat on faith then God can never truly give you abundance because we are stopping His abundant blessing. God wants a relationship, not a robot. He wants you to trust Him. The saying I heard recently is completely true, God will always give you more than you can handle, but He will never give you more than He can handle. In this, if He only gave us what we could handle then what would be the purpose of needing Him? He wants you to SOAR, He wants you to LIVE in HIS FREEDOM!!

Luke 6:38 – Give and it shall be given to you. Your gift will return to you in full – pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amount you get back.

Matthew 12:33 – A tree is identified by its fruit. If a tree is good, its fruit will be good. If a tree is bad, its fruit will be bad.

Proverbs 13:20 – He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm.

Daddy's Girl

"Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt. Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever." Isaiah 61:7
When I went to Kairos last year, one of the things that My Father in Heaven talked to me about was my earthly father (or lack thereof) and the events that took place in my childhood. He took me back to the event where I was standing in front of my earthly father and He said, "Tell him what you wanted to always tell him." So, I did. I told my father exactly what I had been wanting answers to my whole entire life. Why did you leave me? You could’ve stayed. I loved you. You should’ve stayed because I LOVED YOU. And as the words echoed in my heart as I screamed them , the Lord gently took me by the hand and He started leading me to this place. I started to skip and dance as we walked and danced together. I was happy, innocently happy. The Lord took me back to a place of rest and sat me down and poured this gold liquid into my heart called liquid love. It overflowed and touched everything and as I looked around, everything was covered in gold. He healed my broken heart that started from when I was a child that directed every thought, every pattern of habit in my heart and in my life. For me, He spoke life into these broken bones. He poured out His love for me even more fervently as everything came to the surface. Knowing that I can talk about events that happened to me without having the emotions attached to them, reminds me of how much love He has, even for little old me. The one prayer that I had during that time was that I wanted a real father/daughter relationship. The funny thing is, He already knew this, and in order for me to see the blessing of the relationships around me, He had to heal me from this one event that dictated my life and ruled my relationships. He did it, so gently and lovingly with much patience and amazing grace.


On Memorial Day, I was given an opportunity to go back to Colorado to see my family. When I arrived, I knew what my mission was in my heart. To Love. During those 4 days I was there, a lot of healing took place. A lot of apologizing to my family so that there can be healing in them, as well. I whole-heartedly believe that no one sin is bigger than the other. I have met people in prison that are walking in more freedom than people that are not in prison. My prayer to my Father was that my family would see Him and not me. They did, whether they know it or not. They saw Him and were touched as He touched their hearts and poured out His love for them. Since then, I have a new earthly father, who makes my mother very happy, and he lets me call him Dad. He will not only step into the place of being my dad, but I will step into the place of being his daughter. A real father/daughter relationship. Wow. Absolutely amazing. Plus, he does really cool, adventurous stuff like jumping off cliffs for fun. Relax; he is a professional Para Glider. God has a way of giving us the desires of our hearts in overwhelming and overflowing ways. Not only have I gained a Dad, my children have gained a Grandfather, which is also my desire for my children. There are many blessings to having grandchildren. They are the heritage and legacy of a family. And God is about family. The most important thing is my mother is happy and for this reason alone, my new Dad is apart of our family and our hearts are forever changed because he was the missing link all of these years.


I have always said, “I am a daddy’s girl.” Now I can be, to the fullest of my desires. So, when you hear me say, God restores brokenness, families and relationships He does that and more. I am looking forward to this new season in my life that will reap seeds of love and fulfillment in every area of my life and the lives of those I love.


All Glory, Honor and Praise must be given to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. He is a good God and He wants good things for us.

"Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt. Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever." Isaiah 61:7

Hope Deferred Makes the Heart Sick. Proverbs 13:12

The absence of miracles will often cause people to doubt God's Word. For instance, when God called Gideon, Gideon asked God, "If I am a mighty man of valor where are all the miracles?" This is why Moses asked God to be with him to perform miracles. This is why Elisha asked, "Where is the Lord God of Elijah?" This is why God told Joshua, "As I was with Moses so I will be with thee." This is why we are required to do the same things Jesus did and take up the work He left for us. John 14:12

Miracles are performed to deliver people in danger, to perform judgments upon those who interfere with His work, to calm storms, to cast out devils, to bind up broken hearts, to deliver the captives, and to deliver people from natural stubbornness and rebellion so they may receive the Holy Spirit. Miracles cause people to be saved. Denying miracles does not!!

New Testament Miracles:
John 2 - Jesus turned water into wine.
John 11 - Jesus commanded Lazarus to come forth from the dead after he had been embalmed. John 11 - Jesus fed 5000 with 5 loaves of bread and two fishes.
Luke 17 - Nine lepers were healed. The one that returned found he had a whole nose, whole ear, whole hand, etc. It was more than a healing!! IT WAS A MIRACLE!!

And numerous other accounts of Miracles, Signs and Wonders are recorded throughout the Old and New Testaments of the Bible!!

Do not get me wrong, I am also waiting upon a couple of Miracles myself, but in my waiting my heart is encouraged and transformed when people are healed. Knowing that God chooses me as a vessel is a Miracle in itself because I was not always this 'Free'!! IN FACT, I was a HOT MESS!!! I have references to confirm this, by the way!!

The other day, someone I have never shared anything about my life with, said, "You have been through a lot in your lifetime, it is a wonder that you are not bitter." Miracles, Signs and Wonders come in all shapes and sizes!!

I do know this much "Hurt People, Hurt People, BUT FREE People, FREE People!!

He has a purpose and a plan for our lives, that He placed in us before we were born. He knew us before the beginning of time and while we were being formed in our mother's womb!! And there is nothing that we can do to mess HIS Plan up!! NOTHING!! If you take a few detours, make sure you take lots of pictures!! And when you are ready, He will be waiting for you patiently and is always pursuing you, ALWAYS!!! He loves everything about you even when you do not!! To me, that is a Miracle in itself, that someone would love me NO MATTER WHAT!!

EVEN IN MY MESS, HE LOVED!!

The Secret of No Plan B

So, I am reading this book called the Secret of the Secret Place by Bob Sorge! And in this chapter The Secret of No Plan B he talks about Isaiah 44:14-20 and he says in his book:

The Lord gave me a definition of a false god. This definition helps me because even though in our westernized culture there are few people who actually worship figures of wood or stone, we too have our own false gods. In this passage, the Lord describes the idolaters as saying to their block of wood, "Deliver me, for you are my god!" So a god is defined as this: anything to which we ascribe the power to deliver us. Westerners have their own set of false gods - sources to which they turn to for deliverance when in times of crisis or need (let the reader understand).

Some of the gods in our own culture are:

Money, Health Insurance, Medical treatment/prescriptions, Social Security, Retirement plans and IRA's, credit cards/consolidation loans, drugs/alcohol, pleasure/entertainment/recreation/sports, sex, friends (to deliver us from loneliness), couselors, lawsuits, filing bankruptcy, etc.

God-worshippers are those who come to God first in their time of need. They seek God's face and wait on Him to receive directives for the course to take. The secret place becomes a threshold where we wait upon God, seeking His powerful intervention, and crying out to Him for wisdom and revelation. Occasionally, the Spirit will say to you, "In this instance, I want you to wait on Me only and stand in faith until I intervene sovereignly in your situation." When God gives you this word then fasten your seatbelt! You are in for the ride of your life. You are stepping into the God zone. Here we find the stuff of miracles. This is the dimension where God rises up in His wrath and vengeance and wreaks havoc upon your enemies. Your role is to gaze upon Him, love Him and grow in patience and faith; His role is to loose resurrection power in His time and way. Not every crisis falls into this category, but when it does... get excited!! You're taking the high road of the greatest saints of history, the pathway where God reveals the power of His arm, the splendor of His majestic beauty, and the awesomeness of His eternal purpose. (Psalms 62:5-8).

As I write this chapter (Bob Sorge), I am personally in great need of divine intervention in regard to physical infirmity. I have been tempted to consider some other avenues of relief, such as those listed above. But, instead, I have said to the Lord, "You are my Helper. If You don't save me, I am not saved. If You don't heal me, I am not healed. If You don't deliver me, I am not delivered. I have no other recourse, no Plan B, no alternative plan. I am not entertaining other options. It's You and You alone. I worship You. You are my God!!"

Is it possible, though, that this storm has come to guide you into a higher dimension of Kingdom Living? Oh, I hope you can learn the secret; When the storm hits, run into the secret place, establish your spirit, and say to Him with unwavering resolve, "You alone are my expectation." Our God loves to prove Himself strong on behalf of those who have NO other gods before Him.

This book is powerful and faith filled. I recommend it to anyone. It is awesome!

He's Called You...By Name!!

Repent, for The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand. Matthew 4:17

So, in recent national events we are looking at those events as human beings and I am just asking you to look at them from God’s prospective for just a moment. All this time we have had this organized health care available to us at a cost. Now as the law passed we still have it at a cost but now they are forcing us to pay for it and if not they will sick the IRS on us. Seriously? I don’t think it’s about Christians voting or not voting. I believe that God is a jealous God and He allowed this to happen for His own good reasons. You don’t like that answer? Then you should probably keep reading!! It gets even better!!

Let’s say that He has seen us depend on healthcare for healing to ‘cure’ us per se but, He sees it as, we are looking to medicine for the cure and care that we should be receiving from Him and Him ONLY!! I think the phrase “God uses Doctor’s to heal” also has become too loose in our vocabulary and we believe what we say! But, what does God say? He says this in His word, I am your Rock, I am your Provider, I am your Husband, I am your Healer, I am your Physician, I am your Comforter, I am your Strength, I am your Shield, I am your Protection. So, with that said, I know from personal experience standing on His word NEVER fails. So, perhaps He is using this to guide the body of Christ into lining up with His word!! For so many years we have been hypocrites in quoting scripture and not doing what He says but telling everyone else to do it. Finding Excuses why God doesn’t DO IT!! EXCUSES ARE LIES FROM THE PIT OF HELL!! So, many people are ‘comfortable’ in their chairs in the church. And, there is a season for that not a lifetime. You are not going to do any damage to the enemy's camp by sitting in a chair or a doctor's office for that matter.

Now is the time that God is going to be stretching His People to live outside their comfort zone. Stepping into His Gifting’s, His Call, His will that He has placed in you and it is more relevant now more than ever before!! Now is time that laying hands on the sick is MORE needed than EVER!! We as the Body of Christ don’t need healthcare if we are depending on JESUS to be our EVERYTHING!! AND HE IS ALL THAT WE NEED!! Again, look at it from His prospective not yours. His way is the ONLY WAY and always the PERFECT WAY!! I don't believe He withholds, I believe we get in His way!!

Just remember He is allowing these earthly events to take place so that He will receive all the Glory!! There will be No more doubt of How He does it!! Or who the TRUE HEALER AND PHYSICIAN IS!!!

Today I have chosen to Lean on My Savior MORE than I have EVER before!! Lean into Him, Rely on and Trust in Him. I am just a mere vessel and I want to be available for Him to use me in any way He chooses for HIS GLORY!! I am not worthy in deserving anything but, I know that I want Him to stretch me so that anything I do for Him is not in my own strength but always in His!!

So, let me Re-Introduce you to the Man who came to restore everything back to the way it was meant to be from the Beginning.

My Friend, JESUS!!! This is who He is to me!!

He Is My Healer – Luke 6:18-19 & Isaiah 53:5
He Is My Physician – Luke 5:31
He Is My Rock – 1 Corinthians 10:4
He Is My Husband – Isaiah 54:5
He Is My Provider – Philippians 4:19
He Is My Comforter – John 15:26-27
He Is My Strength – Isaiah 12:2, Isaiah 26:4
He Is My Shield – Psalms 119:114
He Is My Protection – Deuteronomy 32:38

As an added reminder - He has Called You from the beginning of time to do greater things in Him than He did while He was here!! He has called you by Name!!

Philippians 4:13 (AMP) – I have the strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency.]

Walking It Out!

When I was a little girl and I would get mad at my mom, because she wouldn't give me my way, I would say (under my breath and at the opposite end of the house) I will NEVER be like you!! Well, the Lord has a very funny sense of humor!! Funny thing is my life mirrored my mother's life in so many ways!! So, I found myself walking in the same circumstances!! Of course I broke the generational iniquities BUT, nothing changed!! One day I asked the Lord, ok what am I suppose to learn in all of this!! As the saying became very fresh in my mind - You will always get what you've always gotten, if you keep doing what you have always done!! Hmmm... ok, yeah... So, what does that look like I asked?

He showed me the Image of Christ Jesus and He was bent over on his hands and knees, blood dripping from Him! And I remember Him saying to me You have to walk it out so that I can show you these things!! I didn't really LIKE that answer and rebuked the devil in the process!! I think we give the enemy too much credit! We blame him for things we do!! A lot of times we blame God for what the enemy does! Kind of distorted huh? Anyway, as I got over myself, He reminded me that we, as Christians are sacrificing our lives (walking it out) so that people in our own family and generations to come may be FREE!! He asked me one day, do you want to see your children walk this walk because of your unwillingness to submit to Me? That hit me like a ton of bricks!! It was so profound to me!! Of course the answer was a H-E -Double Hockey sticks NO!! I don't wish this walk on anyone especially, my children! At that moment, I said it stops with me! As Mary said, Let it be unto me as You have said!!

So, next time we want to judge those who have cancer or other various diseases or those who are single parents, (that are single parents due to numerous circumstances like death of a loved one, prison of a loved one or divorce) remember, God is not surprised by our circumstances and He trusted them enough to allow it to come to pass!! Not everyone can walk the walk that you are called to walk! And you are the only one that can walk it out! So, love on them and walk WITH them, encourage them instead of condemning them!! Speak life into them, not death!! THAT IS WHAT JESUS CHRIST WOULD DO!! Isn't that the goal? To be more and more LIKE HIM!! Today is your day, Choose this day whom you will serve, for me and my house we will serve the Lord!! Again, be careful of the things you say and think about others because you never know when YOU will be walking in the position of those you are judging, just like me!!

Walking In His Faithful Love,
Jacqueline

A Life Consumed

Have you ever wanted something so bad for even someone else that it has consumed your prayer life, your walk, your talk, your thoughts, and your dreams? Well, for the last 2 years I have let thoughts of my husbands release consume me. God’s promises to me about giving me a new husband out of an old one consumed every aspect of my life!! I concentrated on the promise and NOT the PROMISER!! How did that happen? Well, very easily and subtly. The last week I have been reminded that God is SOVEREIGN!! Which means HE knows ALL and sees ALL!! Just when I thought it would happen this way, something came in to destroy that thought! Then I would think it would happen another way then destruction came again! Well, it can’t happen that way or this way then?? How is it going to happen?? Some things are not for us to know! He planted a seed in my heart a while ago about the way it was going to happen but it was ONLY for me! Where did I get off track? I made this ‘thing’ an idol!! Thinking I know what God is going to do and the strategy He is going to use to get the end result to come forth!! HA!! Boy, let me tell you how WRONG I was!! You see, my focus was on the circumstances and trying to figure out what God is going to do instead of on God himself!! Yep, I admit it!! I am human!!
So, in His correction of reminding me of WHO HE IS, He has completely had compassion and mercy on me! Knowing that I cannot do anything without Him, I had somehow left Him out of the process and been arrogant enough to think I knew what God the Almighty was doing? Seriously? Who did I think I was? I have come to realize that there are just some things that I don’t need to know! For example, I don’t need to know what your issue is, or your need is to pray for you!! In fact, I like it better when I don’t know! But, in the same instance, I want to know?! Why? Because I am human being made up of fleshly desires!! So, after He allowed me to get over myself and grieve!! When you kill your flesh that has been so dominating in your life for so long there is a grieving process!! Just like when someone dies, we grieve our loss, we also in that same process grieve what we didn’t have and what was stolen from us (what we could’ve had)! In this process I have truly realized that I haven’t been happy in a very LONG time!! So, now that I am over myself I believe that I can enjoy my life and BE HAPPY!! Be WHOLE in Him!! Have my JOY in Him back!! Trying to figure out what God is going to and how He is going to do it IS EXHAUSTING work of the flesh!! But, there are ways that seem right to man but in the end will cause destruction! There is a VERY sobering reality! Just a reminder that I don’t have all the pieces of the puzzle, but, that I am a piece of the puzzle and although, I may not make a difference in everyone’s life there is that one person that I have meant and made a world of difference. The world doesn’t need anymore Big and Important people. The world needs people that are compassionate and merciful to just ONE person!! And it all started in the Beginning with just one person (Adam) and Ended at the cross with just one person (Jesus)!!

The Strength of a Man

The Strength of a Man!!

The strength of a man isn’t in the width of his shoulders, it’s seen in the width of his arms that encircle you and protect you.

The strength of a man isn’t in the words he speaks, it’s in how he keeps his word.

The strength of a man isn’t in how respected he is at work, it’s in how he is respected at home.

The strength of a man isn’t in how hard he hits, it’s in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn’t in the size of his chest, it’s in the heart that lies within the chest.

The strength of a man isn’t in how many women he’s loved, it’s in whether he can be true to the one woman he is trying to love.

The strength of a man isn’t in the weight he can lift, it’s in the burdens he can carry.

The strength of a man knows when he has a good woman, and doesn’t do things to lose her, but does everything to cherish her.

And finally the strength of a man brings out the strength in a woman that she never knew she had.

When Life Happens

Whoever told me that being a Christian was a LIFE changing event was telling the truth! As I look over this last year and even in recent events in my life I have realized that standing in Faith is a VERY lonely road!! You see standing in faith means that you DO stand alone in the world, because you realize that NOT everyone in your life Believes in a God that still performs miracles, signs and wonders!! In the most recent past months I have believed and stood and when I knew that God had said yes it didn't turn out the way I thought because my circumstances said NO!! So, I asked the Lord what happened and He said there was a petition. A petition by satan stating that I am sure she will curse you to your face if you don't do this ONE thing for her like you said. I didn't understand because everything that I thought was going to happened had now been delayed!! Talk about my patience being TESTED!! Enough already!! So, what did I do? What any human being would do. Grieve! And in my moment of grief and frustration He told me about the petition... So, as a child of the MOST HIGH GOD, I counter petitioned!! I told the Lord to search my heart and if there were impurities then judge me! He already knows what I am going to do before I do it and already knows everything about me!! So, I wait, and wait and wait some more!! In my wait I feel like I am called to fast with my church and the last few days I have been preparing for this fast! I am actually excited to do it!!

For those who don't know my story, my husband was convicted of a crime he did not commit in 2008 and since all of this has happened I have had a baby along with raising my 7 year old all by myself. No family help. Friends? What Friends? They left when my husband got convicted. Single parenting is hard. I didn't ask to be a single parent when I got married. This isn't the LIFE I would've chosen for me!! But, let me tell you about what God HAS done in this process. He has taken care of us every month for the last year and a half and I have had the opportunity to homeschool my 7yr old as a single parent and we have always had food to eat and clothes along with shoes on our feet. He has performed a miracle every month for us by paying our bills and all I have done was lift my bills up to him and you know HIS WORD IS TRUE!!! He says He will provide all my needs according to His riches and glory!! And when man has said NO... MY GOD SAID YES!!! :) It's so amazing to me how much He loves me! And let me tell you this ... Since He did it for me, HE WILL DEFINITELY DO IT FOR YOU!!! Trust in Him even when everyone and everything around you screams NO. Remember He said Yes to you before you said Yes to Him!! Stand and Believe that His word and only His word is the Truth!! I love you!!

The One I Love To Praise!!

This last year my life has been turned upside down, inside out, twirled around and stipped of everything that I thought, felt, believed and lived. How funny that God has this creative plan and when we get ourselves and our plans in the way. He has to empty us to refill us with Him, with His plans for us! Sometimes, that means stripping us down to nothing.

What does it mean to walk in His perfect will? Submission.

The websters dictionary defines submit as this: To give into or surrender to another's authority.

Giving up my will and surrendering it to His will?? Ok, I will play!! So, when I say yes to God that means he makes my paths narrow and straight! This entailed my life depending on Him in every way that I could think of. For the last year plus months, I have had to depend on Him for every need, every want and every desire that I have had. He has answered every prayer that I have prayed. Every prayer but, one. He promised me a new husband out of an old husband!! So, I wait patiently. Some days were better than others. He had to work out some deep roots of hurt and pain that I carried into this marriage. Stemming all the way back to my childhood. I believe hurt people, hurt other people. Angry people come from angry people. And as you probably already can tell where I am going. I was ANGRY!! I would forgive but, pushed the hurt underneath the rug and just ignored it after all I did forgive. Right? Wrong!! Just lately, I have had to "deal" with all this hurt and pain because it is now hindering my relationship with My Father and with people. I am taking this class at my church called Discovering Intimacy. Oh my goodness, I have cried every class since the beginning but, I am glad that He is working and taking all of this out of me. Teaching me how to "relate" to others in their pain. Although, I am not perfect by any means, I am allowing Him to dig these roots up in me. At the same time He is cleansing me, I am realizing the love I have for my own children has changed, to a deeper, unconditional love that is inside of me. Each one of my children are different in so many ways. They are the best of me and the best of their father. They are blessings in their own "special" way!! My oldest son is very intelligent, speaks 3 languages. He is his own unique beat to a different drum. He is unique in many ways and I embrace that quality in him. And I am proud of the man that he has become. My middle child is on fire for Jesus! This quality I love in Him. His gift is compassion and with that comes alot of talking!! He recently told me the other day that he has decided what he wants to be when he "grows up". He said he wants to be a singing pastor. My heart jumps with glee!! He faces many opposition but, his faith is strong. My youngest is a miracle baby!! It's amazing how God has his hand on ALL my children and how he is working on them everyday!! I pray that they will submit to the will of God easier than I did. Less painful for them and isn't that what we really want for our children. I realized that the legacy I leave for my children is not here on this earth, it is in Heaven at the Throne room in prayer. I love walking with my Father in Heaven each and everyday!! He brings me new revelation, fresh understanding and REAL answers for my life! He speaks to me in a language that I can understand and listens to me!! Even when I am not understanding His way, He gently takes me by my heart strings and shows me WHO HE IS!!! He has taught me so much in this last year. One of the things that I have learned is to praise Him in the midst of the storm. It is in those times that I get peace, revelation and understanding all in ONE!!

One Love,
Jacqueline